It’s not goodbye but….

Dear P,
how are you? How have you been? It's been a while since i wrote to you but that's because i was busy. How's life touring the world? I remember how much you wanted to go and see the world; i'm so glad you had the opportunity.
Mama's doing just fine. She got some new medication that calms her down whenever she has an anxiety attack. It hasn't been easy you know.
I'm doing fine. I'm back in school now. Classes are a bit harder than i expected but i'm not worried because i will be able to catch up in no time.
I miss you, P. I miss my best friend. I miss our time together. I miss being able to run to you whenever i had anything on my mind. Now i just bottle it all up because no one understands me like you did.
Do you remember our last night together? I do. It's etched in my brain never to be erased. Your soft skin, your kinky hair, your smile, your intense frown as you concentrated on something.
I loved how you touched me. I loved how you held me in your arms and told me you loved me.
Today i write this letter as my heart waves good bye to you. I'm glad to hear that you finally found love, even if it's in the arms of another man. Yes, that did shock me when you told me that you could never love a woman. But i guess that's life; you win some, you lose some.
I have to go now. Mama is calling me and Tina is screaming her lungs off. By the way, she looks just like you...

Love you forever,
N