Between that rock and a hard place

Dear N,
Thank you for your letter. I was so glad to finally hear from you. Needless to say i was thrown off by your letter. Why didn't you tell me sooner? My dear, my love, that is why I'm there. I promised i would always be there.
Tina. I shed tears every time I think of you and our daughter. Is she as beautiful as you? Does she have your large eyes and dimpled smile? Oh what I would do to be there now.
Darling N I love you. I miss you too. You too have always been my best friend. It has been so hard being away from you. Everywhere I go I carry a memory just for you. I've always dreamt of a time we would see the world together. But, I guess, fate had a different plan for you and for me.
Do you know how it feels to love two people yet you can only belong to one? W makes me happy. He loves me for me and I love him. Yet you fill my dreams and occupy a place in my heart no one else will ever be able to fit into. I'm sorry if I seem to burden you with all these. You see you are the only one I can share this with. You are my only true friend and more...
I will see you in a couple of months. We sail home from in a week. I cannot wait to see you. I really would like for you to meet W. I told him all about you.... I hope you get along. I miss you.
Love,
P