Impossible by Christina Aguillera featuring Alicia Keys

It's impossible
It's impossible to love you
If you don't let me know what you're feeling
It's impossible for me to give you what you need
If you're always hiding from me

I don't know what hurt you
I just, I wanna make it right
I'm sick and tired of trying to read your mind

It's impossible
Oh baby it's impossible for me to love you
It's the way it is
It's impossible
Oh baby it's impossible
If you making it this way

Impossible to make it easy
If you always trying to make it so damn hard
How can I give you all my love, baby
If you're always, always putting up your guard

This is not a circus
Don't you play me for a clown
How long can emotions keep on going up and down

It's impossible
Oh baby it's impossible for me to love you
It's the way it is
It's impossible
Oh baby it's impossible
If you keep treating me this way
Over and over

Impossible baby
If you making' it this way
Oh baby, it's impossible
If you making it this way

You shot your arrow through my heart - written by Brian McKnight, performed by Az Yet Share

Quietly I watch you sleep
Hopefully you won't hear what I say
Wondering if I turned the clouds
Happy the moment I tasted your rain
Tonight was the night
That I saw my first sight
Of how pleasure wins over pain
Now I know what I know
Don't wanna ever let you go
I just hope that you feel the same

You shot your arrow
Through my restless, shaking heart
You came down on me slow
Drew back your bow
My lady, you shot your arrow
Straight through my heart

I kiss your mouth and stroke your hair
Intently I hang on your every breath
I know what I'm feeling right now
Is more than just lust
For the sake of your flesh
Girl, I need you now
I'll try my best to learn how
To be all that my words might say
Caressing your skin
I never imagined
That I'd ever feel this way

Girl, I need you
I'll try my best to learn how
To be all that my words might say
Caressing your skin
I never imagined I could
ever feel this way

Diary of a disillusioned woman - Feb 1st

OMG!!!! I can't believe Sally is getting married!!!! Jack proposed to her last night!!! I mean, I am so happy for her!!! Though I must say she has to be a bit careful with that man; he's known to have a bit of a roving eye. Nonetheless, this is good news! Now Tony will start feeling the pressure of the need to get his house in order as Jack is soon-to-be a married man. I hope they don't pick my dream wedding month, February. That would be catastrophic considering that I want to be totally involved in her wedding, which is not possible if I am getting married around the same time. By faith I am going to be getting married this time next year.

Note to self: Valz plans!!!!
Ask Sally what Jack says that Tony said about the wedding issue
Doctor's appointment tomorrow

Diary of a disillusioned woman - Jan 22nd

Life's back to normal. I guess it finally dawned on Tony that I am the queen of his life and that if he wasn't careful he could lose me. Not that I was capable of leaving. I love him too much. Beside, after five and a half years of dating, I cannot comprehend starting all over again. I mean, the awkwardness of a first date, getting to know someone, the process is just too rigorous!
Anyway, I went shopping with Sally and Lynne today. Got me some lovely lovely stuff. Tony will be jazzed!!! ;)

Note to self: I need to start figuring what to do for Tony for Valentine's. I really think we need to go out of town to sort of heighten our romance. We've been through enough as it is.